Why You Miss The Person You Were When Life Was Harder

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It’s strange how we miss versions of ourselves we once prayed to outgrow

I was talking with someone the other day who said
“I miss who I was when I was fighting for something.”

At first it didn’t make sense
Why miss the chaos
the uncertainty
the long nights and the exhaustion

But then I understood

There’s a certain clarity that comes when life demands everything from you
You know who you are when you’re surviving
but when the noise fades
you don’t always know who you’ve become

At 10 17 PM that night
I wrote in my notes app
“Maybe peace feels empty because I haven’t learned how to live inside it yet.”

What does that mean

Growth doesn’t always feel like progress
Sometimes it feels like loss

When your nervous system has spent years thriving on adrenaline
calm can feel like a void
You start mistaking intensity for meaning
and quiet for absence

That’s why people sometimes feel nostalgic for hard times
It’s not that they want pain again
It’s that they miss the sense of purpose it forced out of them

Why this matters

If you have ever

felt dull in moments that should feel peaceful
missed your old fire even though it burned you
or wondered why calm feels so uncomfortable

then you are not broken
You are just adjusting to a new kind of life
one where you don’t need to fight to exist
but are learning how to exist without fighting

What I would love from you

When was the last time you missed a version of yourself that existed in struggle
What do you think that version of you was trying to teach you

Reply to this email and tell me
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Stay sharp
Your Neurotweak Team

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